9 months old already!

I can't believe my third little baby is already 9 months old- where did the time go? I don't know if I'm more shocked that he's 9 months old, or if it's that I have 3 kids or if it's that I have 3 kids 5 and under- YOWZA! At any rate, my little Luke is growing fast and I can't grasp the fact that he'll be 1 year old in only 3 short months. I'm not ready for him to grow up. I really struggle with whether or not he's our last baby. There are many days when I think I must be crazy to even think about having another child and then there are also days when I think how can I not have just one more- who looks back on their life and says they wish they wouldn't of had so many kids? They don't. They seem to wish they had more. I keep telling Michael that we, obviously, have to move first. I can't even fathom another little one in this house! lol! It's hard to think that I may never hold another infant in my arms that is mine. For now, I'm just praying that God will speak to my heart and make known the plans He has for me. Until then, I'm enjoying my chaotic life with my 3 wild ones!